I'd just add that little do other people know that our brains process information a little differently. I'm smart. You're smart. However, childhood trauma does impact your pre frontal cortex and other networks such as the attention network. It can feel a little like ADHD. You might get the response, “Why are you being so stupid? or Why is this taking longer for you to grasp? — if they're not saying it, you might pick up on their silent judging. I didn't realize how differently my brain functioned until I did neurofeedback and QEEG analysis. The analyst said after reading results: “You shouldn't have to work so hard. You have developed a lot compensatory featured and it’s pretty amazing how well you function.” No one ever sees that. No one recognizes it. It sucks most of the time so much that I want to cry.
Oh Anna, I wish I could give you a hug right now. Crying would be the normal reaction to this. I've done a lot of angry crying in my life too.
My biggest regret is that, in those moments of freeze, or shortly after, I didn't have the awareness and information I have now to protect myself and advocate for myself. But through education others might, and one day the wider society will hopefully be more tolerant ad supportive <3.
I feel the same. I used to be embarrassed about my desire to cry. But, I don't feel that way anymore. I don't cry a lot, but sometimes I grieve. When I read about what others have to endure when they feel they're not understood, it does bring me to tears, sometimes. Thanks for offering this space for me to honestly reflect upon my feelings.
I'd just add that little do other people know that our brains process information a little differently. I'm smart. You're smart. However, childhood trauma does impact your pre frontal cortex and other networks such as the attention network. It can feel a little like ADHD. You might get the response, “Why are you being so stupid? or Why is this taking longer for you to grasp? — if they're not saying it, you might pick up on their silent judging. I didn't realize how differently my brain functioned until I did neurofeedback and QEEG analysis. The analyst said after reading results: “You shouldn't have to work so hard. You have developed a lot compensatory featured and it’s pretty amazing how well you function.” No one ever sees that. No one recognizes it. It sucks most of the time so much that I want to cry.
Oh Anna, I wish I could give you a hug right now. Crying would be the normal reaction to this. I've done a lot of angry crying in my life too.
My biggest regret is that, in those moments of freeze, or shortly after, I didn't have the awareness and information I have now to protect myself and advocate for myself. But through education others might, and one day the wider society will hopefully be more tolerant ad supportive <3.
I feel the same. I used to be embarrassed about my desire to cry. But, I don't feel that way anymore. I don't cry a lot, but sometimes I grieve. When I read about what others have to endure when they feel they're not understood, it does bring me to tears, sometimes. Thanks for offering this space for me to honestly reflect upon my feelings.
I was very touched by your sharing, Adina! ☀️ I love the comparison with parenting, and having faith that it will all turn out well. 🦋
Thanks, Vero, for always being there for me <3<3